Monday, 16 October 2017

God, How do I Girlfriend? ๐Ÿ™ˆ


Soooo, Saturday night I went to bed being someone's girlfriend๐Ÿ™ˆ ... lol poor guy doesn't know what He's in for ๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿ˜‚

Jokes! jeez, I',m kidding lol ... It's My long time best friend Dave๐Ÿ˜Š, we've basically been friends for 5 years now, but I think we've known each other longer
I honestly don't know how to start explaining this and how it started but I'm hoping for inspiration from the Holy Spirit (furthermore referred to as The HS) to put it all in words simply cause I can't even comprehend what the hell is going on ๐Ÿ˜‚

So me and him never thought we were each other's type, he liked light skinned girls (I think) and from what I knew my guy was going to be white, I love black love I just figured I'd never find a black guy who'd love me the way I desired to be loved the way god had put in my heart that I could be loved, until๐Ÿ˜Š... I'm getting so emotional just thinking about this. My point is that we weren't looking at each other and we weren't really looking for the kin dof relationship we have, and are aspiring and having faith that God is leading us into
 ... And Dave couldn't be more black and my melanin popping boo๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿ˜‚

So how he explains it as told by The HS (we are both very Spiritual๐Ÿ˜‚... and I laugh a lot, so brace yourself๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿ™ˆ) which I think explains it for me too and sorta set my confusion straight... God has been renewing us from the inside out and changing the ideas and ideologies we've picked up about relationships and ideal partners, The HS led him to this verse

Romans 12

1-2So here's what I want you to do, God helping you: Take your everyday, ordinary life—your sleeping, eating, going-to-work, and walking-around life—and place it before God as an offering. Embracing what God does for you is the best thing you can do for him. Don't become so well-adjusted to your culture that you fit into it without even thinking. Instead, fix your attention on God. You'll be changed from the inside out. Readily recognize what he wants from you, and quickly respond to it. Unlike the culture around you, always dragging you down to its level of immaturity, God brings the best out of you, develops well-formed maturity in you.

3I'm speaking to you out of deep gratitude for all that God has given me, and especially as I have responsibilities in relation to you. Living then, as every one of you does, in pure grace, it's important that you not misinterpret yourselves as people who are bringing this goodness to God. No, God brings it all to you. The only accurate way to understand ourselves is by what God is and by what he does for us, not by what we are and what we do for him.

So I'm not sure who started crushing on the other but I realised before he told me he was crushing on me that I'm crushing on him

How it started was he wrote a long status message on whatsapp describing his WCW, I read it and it was exactly my description of my MCM and I replied with an addition to what he'd already stated (mind you I already knew I sorta liked him) 2 days later he told me that as he was writing the status message he had me in mind ๐Ÿ˜Š๐Ÿ™ˆ and I accepted to b his WCW ๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿ˜‚ I also told him that he was the only one that fits my described as well, i guess making him my MCM (It has nothing to do with the days monday and Wednesday, guys focus)

I guess question is, what did this description say, cause all along me and him weren't each others types so how are we all of a sudden crushing on each other?

Basically paraphrasing his description said:
My wcw is a girl I can hold a Jesus conversation with, someone who'd cause me to believe greater things in Jesus, a girl that can hold up the conversation that about Jesus' greatness and how the Holy Spirit is in us to lead us to the life Jesus died for us to live, the bible says when you behold Jesus you transform from glory to glory to the same, imagine beholding Jesus with your partner your relationship would transform from glory to glory to the same

It was longer than this, after I read it I replied to the status saying:
typa relationship where you take crazy faith steps together and have the same understanding that God is for you and never against you, where you draw love and forgiveness for each other from God Himself, where you both don't depend on each other's strength or wisdom or sanity for the wellbeing of the relationship but depend on the Holy Spirit's guidance for each other, typa relationship we don't see on TV or read of in books cause it's unnatural, it's unhuman it's Godly, it's Supernatural...

In all my Christian life (I like to say I was born Christian๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿ˜‚) I've never thought of that being my ideal guy or ideal type of relationship, my focus had always been on the outside man not the inside man, I'm not talking about his 'inner consciousness' or 'who he is inside', I'm talking about the Jesus in Him and who he is in Jesus. The scripture above explains how and why this complete shift happened and I think it's beautiful

So we established we were each other's typa crush but me and him hadn't looked at each other in that sort of way. We took the decision to get in a relationship. Lol it's crazy cause me and Dave have been friends for 5 years and we don't have those kinda feelings for each other, we just both feel very strongly towards each other in the sense that we feel that God wants to use our relationship together to show how He had intended dating and 'relationshiping'.

So honestly we don't really know what we are doing, because we dont know how to 'relationship' the God way, all we know is what we've seen and learned from the world and we not saying it's wrong or right what the world is doing, we just want our relationship to be inspired and led by the Spirit of Jesus. We both agreed that the relationship is God's to flourish all for His glory, we've offered it a sacrifice and so we are doing it as the Holy Spirit leads us, which only means that it's going from glory to glory and it's going to be one amazing joy ride

God just reminded me of something, Dave helps me lead our Hillsong Powerhouse Connect Group in Soshanguve -Spirit Intoxicated Connect. Now funny thing that the HS just brought to my attention is that the past 2 weeks we had been talking about relationships and godly dating, i hosted the first session making 3 points to consider when getting in a relationship

#1. It has to honour and bring Glory to God (In that it is important how you guys as a unit serve the Kingdom, and bring to the table as a couple)
#2. It has to honour your parents
#3. it has to be non-sexual

He hosted the second session and his points are
#4. Allow God to deal with your past so we can all focus on the future (by allowing His forgiveness for your sins, and receiving it to forgive others)
#5. It has to be Spirit led, where you guys pray for each other, in the Spirit too (He is crazy about the fact that when you speak in tongues it is actually the Holy Spirit praying for you -it is quite awesome though, have to agree)


The HS is adding these points as I was typing
#6. It should bring you closer to God not draw you away
#7. You are first God's before each other's
#8. There's greater grace available for your relationship, don't focus and depend on your own efforts



Today is Day 2 of our relationship and I like him, like, I like him-like him๐Ÿ™ˆ๐Ÿ˜Š

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